And the Two Shall Become One...

So there is a reason that my blogs have been spotty at best lately....I've been very busy.

Yes, that's right....I am excited to announce that I am getting married!

I feel so incredibly blessed to have found a very wonderful man. A man who absolutely adores me. A man who can love the kids the way only a father can.

And one of the coolest things about the whole deal...

is....

I don't even have to change my last name!!!


For those of you that are a little on the slow side....my dear ex and I have decided to remarry!

The Lord has really been working in both of our lives the last several months, both apart and together. I truly feel so blessed, and I'm so excited!

On July 12th, after 23 months of seperation and 10 months after a divorce we will commit our lives to each other, a mere 10 years, 3 months and 22 days after the first time that we did it. I am so excited that my dear youth pastor, Dave, is flying down to perform the ceremony a second time...it truly wouldn't seem right without him. He has been such an integral part of my life for so very long that it only seems right that he be there. Once again it will be a family-only ceremony. I had always dreamed of the "big" princess type wedding, but now that I've grown and realized that it is not about the "wedding" but about the "marriage" then it only seems right that it is just family...minus a brother and SIL (so sad...but they will be down a few days later!).

I've been asked a few times whether I regret actually getting divorced. Obviously, it is not what I had wanted, but, at the point we were at, there really wasn't a very good alternative. In a wierd way I am very thankful for it. I was truly blessed to see how God provided for me. And we were both so young when we first married, faced with the birth of P only 5 months after and then E with all of his major problems only 15 months later. We never had a chance to "grow up" and be our own person. This last two years has allowed both of us the time to "grow up" to be ourselves so that we can give of ourselves unselfishly in our marriage. It's really hard to give yourself when you don't know who you are.

The biggest thing that I've noticed between this marriage and the first one is the feelings that I have. With the first marriage it was all about how completely and totally "in love" we were! It was all about these ushy-gushy "feelings". But the wierd thing is that I couldn't imagine forever with him...it seemed like a very long time! Not that I didn't want to spend "forever" together, but it just seemed so long.

Now I just feel like I have this amazing person that understands me - warts and all. I know him - warts and all. He is my best friend, regardless of circumstances he has been my best friend for the last 12 years. I can't imagine not spending forever with him, and forever doesn't seem that long. I have gaps....and he fills those gaps. I feel like I've found that rare companion to do life with.