The Lord Provides

I feel like I'm eating bread and fish. Not literally, but figuratively. Most people don't know this, but my divorce was finalized on September 13th. I didn't post anything because I had a LOT of mixed feelings about it. Another reason why I didn't post is because I filed the end of August 2006 and since then, I have basically been functioning as if I were divorced.

I was talking with a friend earlier today about my situation. I know without a doubt that my divorce was not biblical. I know that God wants T & I to be married and serving Him together. But I also know that God gives each of us free choice. T has chose to go in a certain direction, just like I chose to divorce T. I will ultimately have to stand before the Lord and answer to Him for my divorce, I know that. But I would much rather answer to Him for my divorce than for other reasons that would have been a certainty had we stayed together. Nevertheless, the Lord provides.

He has provided for me and my children in very evident ways over the course of the last year (not to say that He didn't before then, it's just more evident now). For example, the first month or two after we seperated, I truly thought that there were bills I was forgetting to pay, simply because I had more money than I thought was possible. I kept waiting for the other shoe to drop, but it didn't. And today, he has multiplied loaves and fishes... things aren't horrible right now, but they are tight...especially because I'm getting ready to make my final payment to my attorney. I got $20 out of the ATM yesterday for weekly incidentals (school trips, lunches, spur of the moment things for the kids,etc). I usually get $60, but I thought it best not to this week. P&J are going somewhere with their friends this evening and then out to dinner, so I gave them the $20 I got, hoping nothing too major would come up. Well, I really needed some extra cash before I went to school this afternoon, so I was going to the ATM to get another $20 out, I looked in my wallet and there was $40 in there. I know that $40 wasn't there before, I KNOW it wasn't. But the Lord provides... there are countless examples of this that I could give. What is important for me to remember is to be thankful for God's grace, and the Lord provides!